sumtimes
i feel hurt, awkard and embrassed wen i make a remark tat is not meant 2
b funny, yet people laugh. i am xtremely conscious of de opinions of
others n hav rather strong likes n dislikes. i bliv girls n guyz out thr
oso tink like me. im sumtimes moody, sumtimes it is not easy 2 xplain y
i am miserable bcoz im nt sure myself. at other times i am eager 2 talk
bout serius tings 2 my parents and frenz, but i feel awkard and do not
knw whr 2 begin. i feel confused n in doubt. i feel tat sum days my
parent control me as if i were still a child and yet, on other days dey
seem 2 xpect me 2 b grown up den rely i am. i knw my parents show their
luv 4 me in different ways. sumtimes dey r frenly and listen well. dey
oso make a lot of sacrifices 2 giv me better education, holidays n
outings. at times my parents show their luv in ways i do not recognise
easily. dey often seem annoyed, dissapointed and dissatisfied wit my
perfomance. dey r owayz urging me 2 make more acceptable frenz and 2
seek more out of life. i despair sumtimes wen i c my parents
determination 2 make sure tat i make more of my life den dey hav done.
it is not easy 2 understand their attitude but i guess if i try to luk
deeper, i may begin 2 de reasons 4 their behavior. wen my parents ask
alot of questions and even seem 2 b checking up on me, perhaps it is
sign dey care??? meanwhile,
i am still xploring and xperimenting, still learning bout my life n
bout myself. i bliv right now de most impotant ting 2 remember is tat i
am unique n i am only young once. so i am goin 2 njoy my teenage years n
make choices tat wil ensure a happy future 4 myself!!!
