i feel like you losing your smile

I'm not sure where to start.. Talk about you? Our first kiss? The kisses that followed? 

Mmm..

U hav the sweetest kisses. Full of emotion and rhythm, and never lacking passion. They always feel so right. And no matter how it may sound, I know your lips are the only ones I want on mine. And maybe it's not just the kiss, maybe it's that everything always seems to work to out so perfectly. I mean, we never have to worry where our hands should be placed, we always know tat my arms will be around my neck and your hands will be placed on my back or waist. If they happen to move after that well, there's usually no confusion on where they'll go. And even with both eyes closed and absolutely no space between us, we always know the perfect amount of steps it takes to get to my... or your..., if we happen to be in that mood. But of course, the kisses themselves are perfect as well. And just by the way you hold me I know exactly how u want to be kissed. If the hold is loose, I know it's romantic. Soft kisses just because you want to feel my lips. But if the hold is tight, I know u well, we, want something a little more imitate. Both are affectionate.

This is what I know, I know I want you. Only you. I know I love you Sivanathan. I know we entered each others lives with two completely different sets of circumstances. You, with newfound freedom, I, with more freedom than I'd like to have. I respect that you want to keep that independence, but excuse me for being selfish when I say, that only I want you for me. I've told you before im  dying to make you mine someday..  But whatever you choose know, I'll always be here when you need me. im missing you for pass few days, i feel like you losing your smile. you show anger on me, and ur love and care on me fading on me day by day. i need to talk to you freely. it almost 1 week. may we both quiet busy with our assignments. hope weekends made 4 us. whatever i did, " i just want to say one word SORRY! it was a single word but i meant it." take care darling. 

So here's my challenge to you, take a chance and realize my love darling.

-VinoodiniSi-