i hate u, still love u

I love you so much and I hate you so much... You rule my life without even knowing that.
You comes in to my life when ever you please and  disappear when ever you desire. I have spend my life trying to forget you but even my heart didn't support me on that , therefore I have made peace with it and learned to live with my feelings. Only if you knew the sleepless night and the countless tears i have shed thinking about you. You never cared and you never will

Out of blue you come into my life again, rekindling all the feelings i have put aside. Inconsiderable to the emotion of others. Its like you own me , I am visible only when you want and I am invisible rest of the time. How could you be so selfish , how could you be so dead inside... I hate you so much.... but still I love you so much.